ughhhh

oh geez i almost forgot to do one of these awesome blogs luckily i remembered on this wonderful sunday night just in the nik of time.
My best friend, Stefani, is going to be home early tomorw morning and I can't wait! We already have a screaming match planned out where we literally just start screaming all the complaints that we've pent up for so long. And then we feel so much better afterwards because we get everything out and solve our problems and be done with it. That's how we stayed out of drama in highschool.
Drama is just really an ellusion of reality, it's making a big deal out of the nothings in life. There are those that swim in it but I'm not sure if they really get hit with true emotion when actual things happen in real life. It's like their little meter for weighing the gravity of situations is busted.
My dog Remi was seriously watching tv last night. I came home from the gym, went in the basement to watch tv and eat cereal and of course she followed me. The movie "So High" was on and I watched the beginning but then ran upstairs to grab a shower. I left the tv on by accident and Remi stayed down there. I had to leave so went downstairs to shut the tv off and she was literally on the couch watching tv intensly not even noticing my presence. So I had to leave it on for her. I just turned the lights off. I even texted my mom with an explanation as to why I left the tv on or else she would have bitched at me. But then this morning when I came home my mom and I were at the kitchen table and my brother comes down and was like "You'd never believe it, I came home last night and Remi was sprawled out on the couch watching tv, she looked at me and turned away to keep watching." She's such a cool dog.

utah

Thanksgiving break was relaxing I did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.
Last night Steve and I decided to sit down and book our flights to Utah. Last year we flew with Southwestern so I looked up the prices for them and then compared with priceline and websites like that. The cheapest I found was going to be 300 dollars a person so we jumped on it and booked the flight. Then we wanted to see baggage limits and what not so we did a little searching and found out that delta and us airways (the planes we booked) charge for all checked in baggage each way. So with our snowboarding bags it would come to 100 dollars more a person. I was like WTF! I searched a little more and found that Southwestern allows 2 checked bags for free! So really their tickets were cheaper by 50 dollars. I called those priceline people bitching that it was outrageous and I wanted a full refund from them bastards! And they gave me what I wanted lol so we booked Southwestern like last year. I can't wait! I love snowboarding with those guys they challenge me because they have balls so I'm forced to grow a pair or go home.
I also can't wait for xmas, I loooooove shopping for other people and this year I've been finding great deals which makes it that much better.
My boyfriend's family is huge so they do a polyana for xmas and decided to include me this year. I ended up getting Steve's aunt which is easy because she decorates her house with that old time country decor, easy cheesy. My boyfriends Uncle picked me specifically as his polyana because he's a biker dude so wants to get me something that says Harley Davidson, I thought that was cute. I want to get Steve a nice digital camera bc we'll def use that but I have no idea whats a good deal or a bad camera.

Entertainment

My boyfriend and I saw Boondock Saints 2 last night and I must say it was freakin awesome but it is a sequel that you need to see the first movie to completly understand. Which the first one is a great movie as well. I love Irish accents and beards, the beginning of the movie made me want to move to Ireland.
A week ago I saw the Orphan which suprisingly was really creepy. They throw this twist at the end which makes the movie more legit.
I'm really pissed because I had no idea that Zombie was going to be at the Electric Factory in December so I didn't get tickets and it's sold out, so now tickets are like 80 bucks a pop :(. I'm debating just buying them but if I think about it, I have a snowboarding trip to Utah coming up which I have to scrape money together for plus christmas presents are going to kill me. I did just buy Flogging Molly tickets so I'll just have to be happy with that. Hopefully he comes around next year to the Electric Factory again because that's one of my favorite places to see shows.
Gwar and Job For a Cowboy are coming to the Electric Factory too and if you've been to a Gwar show you know how fun they are. They put on a hell of a show mutilating celebrities and splattering the audience with blood. If you ever go I suggest taking a sharpie, writing GWAR on a white teeshirt and plan to never wash it. I compare them to Kiss because their music is good but their shows kill it.

Clearing My Thoughts

PHEW! I'm so glad to get my spring schedule done and over with. I've been bickering with my mother for the past few months about the fact that I may not want to be a vet. Its been the source of my anxiety. Then I got so caught up in the normal school-then work routine that I didn't realize the date for scheduling classes was so soon. Luckily I got in with my advisor and it ended up being a great friday because I feel like an inteligent person has confirmed my realization that vet school isn't going to pay off and that there are other jobs that I would be interested in that I can make the kind of money that I want to make.
The other day at work was AWESOME! A hit-by-car dog came in and I helped wrap the broken back leg which was a complete compound brake. I felt the bones crunching as I did it. I felt bad for the dog in pain but it was still to cool not enjoy. Tonight there's a king charles doggy having puppies which is always a treat to see.
Going from a vet office that has clients with money to a vet office that is in an area where people don't have the money to spend on their pets has been really eye-opening. I love animals but honestly not other people's animals. And being a vet is helping people more because they only bring their animal to you when something horribly wrong happens. I'm definitly seeing that people cut trips to vet out of their agenda when their pockets are tight.

A good saturday

Last week my vet office got a new doctor and i'm sooooooooo happy. At first i was a little pissed because he's indian and i could barely understand him and i'm thinking "great not only do we have foreign human dr.'s but now they're taking over the vet world too" But the guy is so chill its ridiculous. He makes the day so stress free. The other dr. is a very nice lady but stresses the hell out of the techs because you can never make her happy it's always our fault always something we did. I had such a good saturday because i was able to focus on what the clients needed and not what i was going to fuck up. It was definitly the first time I left that hospital without wanting to rip my hair out. Plus this new Dr. is ready to help the techs get temperatures and pull blood when we can't seem to find another tech with a free hand. I ask him a billion questions too and he has no problem answering them. The cutest english bulldog came in today and i almost stole him. He was so wrinkly it was adorable.

Grrrr

This Sunday I skipped doing blogs because I was so pissed that the blogs were not going to be counted anymore I decided to rebel but I guess that just made me more pissed that blogs do really count now.
But now that my day just keeps getting worse it'll be easier to rant on and do this here blog. I'm completely overwhelmed. I don't know what to do with my life. Since I was little I've wanted to be a veterinarian but now that I'm faced with the reality of it, I'm not so sure. I'm not sure it's worth it economically. It seems the new vets that I've befriended say it's not worth it they're in debt out of their eyeballs and aren't making the kind of money that they thought. Whereas the older settled vets say that they love their job and that's the most important thing. Then again the older vets attended vet school when it was much cheaper, when you'd come out of vet school oweing the equal amount of money that you would earn the first year being a vet.
Plus I'm obviously a girl and have to factor in having children. I don't want to be an old mom nor do I never want to see my kids so being a vet may not be the greatest idea.
Right now I hate my schedule. I'm up at 5am for the gym, come to school then right to work then all over again the next day. I've been doing that since highschool and looking back I really regret working so much because I feel like I didn't get to have as much fun as I wanted. I don't want to continue this madness I have mental breakdowns atleast once a month. I can't wait to have just one job and THATS IT! Work during the day and have evenings and nights and WEEKENDS to have a life. A 9-5 job sounds wonderful.
I'm thinking vet school will not pay off until I'm really old and I'm not the kind of person that wants to bust my ass while I'm young just watching life pass by without having one and then bam when I'm old suddenly be able to do things I want to but not really because I physically am deteriorating. I'm sick of the lifestyle I have and I think that is going to be my persuading factor because I really need to chill out and enjoy the things and people I have a lot more.

I Quit!

I officially quite my Wawa job and am now down to one job! I'm not trying to sound like an overachiever by saying this but I worked too hard for Wawa. There's a certain amount of things that need to get done in each shift and without a manager on my shift it's hard to motivate pple to get things done so I'd end up putting everything on my shoulders because I have OCD and everything HAD to get done for me to feel like I earned my pay. I made the job waaaaaaaay too stressful I mean it's freakin Wawa. I worked with some nice girls but when it comes to working they were lazy and that's extremely frustrating to me. I'm glad to be down to just one job.

Tonight was the first motorcycle ride where I was driving my bike and he was driving his. Usually I have to ride bitch on my own bike so tonight was awesome. We went to Snipes Farm to run around in the corn maze once it got dark but the corn maze wasn't that spectacular because the corn wasn't high enough. It's great when you can't see over top of the stalks but the stalks only went up to my chest. Apparently it's the fifth or sixth year of growing corn in these fields so there isn't much nutrients left in the soil. But the motorcycle ride was awesome.

Saturday night I went to my friend Katie's for their annual pumpkin carving thing. It sounds like a boring family oriented event but this year was especially good because everyone is considered old enough to drink so it was a bunch of college kids getting drunk and using sharp knives. It was fun. I want to go to some kind of haunted event but they all seem kinda lame. The one year when I was at Elizabethtown College I took my friend to this one hayride that rocked they dropped fake pigs just above your head that were dripping with fake blood. The penintensary is supposed to be cool I've been there during the day and it's creepy so I'm thinking it's probably good. Who knows...